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[dallaslevy]

I can't believe I saw the sun rise this morning. I miss winter break already.

[Merry]

[...] Hey.

[...]

We're good, right? This doesn't need to be weird?

[Hadlee]

Hey.

[...]

You still pissed?

[...]

For the record, I don't have a favorite dance partner.

And I don't feel cursed but maybe it's too early to tell.

Comments

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

No, it totally isn't a big deal. [...] I wasn't very popular at my old school though so if someone was like "Oh Dallas and Merry should date" it would be like, you know. To make fun of you.

[...] But I know people aren't like that here. Who

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

[...] Yeah. I get it. I wasn't very popular at my old school either. But I think you're right; people here are different.

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

I guess it's just easier to not pick on each other when we have something actually important we're all working on together. [...] Usually.

Do you still talk to people from your old school at all?

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

Usually. [...] I guess people can't help themselves when full anonymity's on the table.

A little. There are a few girls from my old dance class that I'm still sorta tight with but that's about all. Do you?

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

Not really. But they're 3000 miles away.

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

I mean. I told you I wasn't popular. [...] And we've got even less to talk about now than we did before. You know?

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

Yeah. I even have a hard time talking to my family now. [...] But my mom told me it's normal for teenagers to be "moody" and that I shouldn't feel bad about it if I need "personal space", so at least I don't have to come up with weird excuses.

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

Nice of her. [...] My dad's never been big on [...] talking. A lot of people think he's, like, the strong and silent type or something. But I think he's more the awkward type.

[...]

It's gotta be hard, though. Not being able to talk to her like before.

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

I love my mom, but [...] she thinks she knows everything about me.

Do you worry about your dad?

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

I mean. Nobody can know everything about you. Even without stuff like this. [...] Sounds like it's sorta complicated, though.

Sometimes I do. [...] My mom died when I was little. And it's hard not to wonder if he was different before that. You know? I don't really remember.

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

Sorta, yeah.

[...] I'm sorry.

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

Think you'll figure it out?

[...] Thanks. Just how it is, though. It's all sorta abstract to me. But it's not for him, so. [...] Yeah. I worry about that.

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

I think it'll be fine, eventually. When I'm a little more grown-up.

[...] I can't imagine not having my mom, but I've never even thought about what it would be like for my mom not to have my dad.

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

You don't feel grown-up now?

[...] I don't think it's the sorta thing you think about until you need to. What's the point?

Dallas/Merry

[expansivemind]

Not really. I mean, more than I did in like, middle school. But I don't feel like a grown-up.

I guess you're right.

Dallas/Merry

[dallaslevy]

That's fair. I guess it'd probably be short-sighted to think anything else at fifteen.

[...] Sorry.