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Who: Neal Valentine & Venus Rosales
When: Shortly after this.
Where: Road back to Finchwood.
What: Dealing with some heavy revelations.
Warnings: WIP but uh, probably general sadness?

There was no discussion about whether to take the bus after they left the Occult shop. Or discussion of anything - they'd just started walking. Venus is grateful for the warm snap, even if it's probably Shadowy in origin. With her leather jacket, she's appropriately dressed for the weather for once. But even though she's not cold, she still finds herself shivering as she follows Neal out of town and back up the road to Finchwood. They're not two people who are suited to silence, but Venus is quiet for a time. She feels bad for Mrs. Ruskin. She's always seemed lonely to Venus, but exceptionally kind. Mrs. Ruskin's concern for her has always seemed genuine, and even though she didn't mean to worry her, Venus finds that comforting. Maybe her mother would be concerned for her if she knew what she was really doing on her days off from class, but even if Venus was allowed to talk about it, her mother never asks. And just like watching the Sayer sisters at the party had made her wonder if Gigi would bother to launch a search for her if she got drunk at a party, Mrs. Ruskin's long-lived sadness for Joss Coburn makes her wonder what her mother would think if she up and left town without an explanation. Somehow, Venus doesn't think she'd be torn up about it twenty years later. She feels a pang of regret, but tells herself it's for convincing Mrs. Ruskin that she saw Joss's ghost... even if that's maybe not too far from the truth. While lost in her own thoughts, she's fallen out of step with Neal, and hurries forward a few paces to catch up with him. "Hey," she says, now that they're far enough from town that they can speak without fear of being overheard. She knows that's not the only reason for the silence, but it's a good enough excuse to break it. "Are you alright?"

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"No, I'm fine," she says, shaking her head and ignoring that terrible feeling in her gut. There's a whine to her voice she can't contain, though. She's never had Neal's composure. But she wasn't the only person Mrs. Ruskin saw a burden in, either. Maybe she's not seeing an ill omen on them. Maybe...

"But what if... what if he was like us?"

[heliocentrist]

Neal pauses. It's long and heavy, but soon their footsteps are in time. The click of Venus' stylish shoes with the squeak of Neal's sneakers fills the air.

"A Persona user?" he whispers. It's such a secret. His mom and Clarice have no idea what's going on with him, or Flint, or Mason. Would she have been like him? He hopes so. It's stupid and pointless, but it's a nice fantasy. He can't imagine her not being just like him. In the timeline where she pulled through, they'd be in this together.

"Gladstone would have told us if one of his friends—" Neal stops, choked, but pushes through it. "Disappeared."

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"If they didn't then where are they?" she asks, her voice rising both in pitch and volume a little before she gets a hold on herself. Being angry is so much easier than being upset or scared, though. "If this happened again in twenty years, can you imagine just deciding not to come back? Do you think anyone here would?"

[heliocentrist]

"No," Neal says, but then forces himself to be calmer. He's the level-headed one. No one will die. No one here can die. He wouldn't allow it, because then he'd have to leave, embrace nothingness.

But maybe it'd be easier. It's not so bad, actually, imagining a world where he doesn't remember what he did to Flint, or how he feels about Atticus, or that Joss has been dead for nearly 30 years. There are a lot of reasons to refuse this life. "They... they probably have families. Kids. People who need them just as much."

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"Mr. Gladstone and Ms. Voss never even talk about them," Venus says to the ground, barely acknowledging Neal now as she walks forward at a steady pace. She doesn't know anything about any of the other people they worked with, only that they'd existed. Even the information Liam and Zinnia had gotten out of Ms. Voss for the interview had been vague.

And Joss, who had been the right age at the right time, had just disappeared. With his friends. Right when the Rifts had closed last. Plenty of people probably left town after all that, but Mrs. Ruskin had thought something was wrong all these years, and she'd been right. Venus feels sick to her stomach and shakes her head no as she walks. "I don't like this, Neal."

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Neal stops, and pulls Venus into a hug, quick, stronger than he looks. He hides his face in her shoulder, and it's as much for him as it is for her. "Nothing will happen to you," he says, like a promise. "Nothing. And if I'm wrong and it does, I'll fix it."

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Venus lets herself be pulled against him and heaves a short heavy sigh into his shoulder as they settle together. Her eyes are a little damp, but she isn't crying. Not yet, anyway. She still feels a suffocating sense of dread hanging over her, but she believes enough in Neal that his words comfort her a little.

"What are we going to do?" she asks, head still resting on his shoulder.