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[dallaslevy]

I can't believe I saw the sun rise this morning. I miss winter break already.

[Merry]

[...] Hey.

[...]

We're good, right? This doesn't need to be weird?

[Hadlee]

Hey.

[...]

You still pissed?

[...]

For the record, I don't have a favorite dance partner.

And I don't feel cursed but maybe it's too early to tell.

Comments

[lucillefer]

i tried

[dallaslevy]

[...] Did you get to lay in bed and daydream, at least?

[lucillefer]

i wrote and practiced
and i read a lot of M.R. James

and no one bothered me

[Dallas]

what did you do
over break

[dallaslevy]

Productivity with a side of ghost stories. Not bad.

[Lucy]

Not much? Danced a lot. Practiced some. Went to see my dad for a few days. Slept.

You?

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

when you dance
what do you do?
is it routines you practice
or do you move and see what happens
?

didn't i just tell you :)
i kind of disappeared

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

Depends. Sometimes I free-form it or I work on technique, sometimes I choreograph stuff out or try a routine I've seen someone else do. Variety keeps me on my toes. So to speak. [...] Why?

[...]

Yeah. I guess we both did. Just to different places.

[...]

Were you lonely?

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

i'm just curious
i don't do anything like it
and i like to learn how people make art

are you happy to return

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

You wanna try sometime?

Sorta. I don't mind being on my own and I got a lot done but this place feels weird when it's empty. Both of my roommates were gone too. [...] Are you?

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

[...] i doubt that would be any fun for you

yes and no
i'm glad to get back to work
i started to feel empt aimless, with no training
no structure
i guess

but it was
overall
quite lovely

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

Never know until you try. Maybe you'd be a natural.

[...] Yeah. I get that. There's a lot to do here; it's sorta hard to put it off.

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

mm
i like to dance
at parties
but i think [...] i'd get bored
i might like to sketch though
unless that'd be weird

exactly
it's [...] hard to describe

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

A dagger through my heart, Lucy. [...] Nah. I don't think it'd be weird. Movement study sorta thing?

[...]

It's just obligation, isn't it? But worse. Because it's not just something that we ought to do, but something that only we can do. It's a lot.

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

yes precisely
or just [...] recording the feeling
patterns of movement

yes
it comes close to what you might call fate
if you wanted

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

Not weird, then. And good motivation.

Yeah. I guess. [......] I don't like the idea of fate much, though.

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

why not

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

[...] I don't know. Because it means you don't have control over anything, I guess. And I'd rather make my own fate.

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

i want to say fate makes you

but how cliched

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

Is that what you think, though?

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

my mind is open

but an absolute idea like fate is comforting

i could believe in patterns of history and action and truth that we are part of
whether we like it or not
but that can be changed

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

[...] Why's it comforting?

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

it eases the sense that we understand nothing
because how could we?
the absolute exists beyond the mundane

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

[...] Maybe.

We do understand some things, though. Even if it's not much in the big scheme of things.

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

some things yes
enough to keep us moving

Lucy/Dallas

[dallaslevy]

That's always been enough for me. I guess.

[...] That 'things we don't understand' column got a lot more crowded in the last year, though.

Lucy/Dallas

[lucillefer]

those things were always in the column
you just didn't know