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SQUAD 5

this week has me so stressed out i wish i knew like five people who would go get manicures with me and one person who would pay for the manicures

PETRA

hey did zinnia mention me to you at all

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Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

Don't worry, I won't crash the squad's sacred rite of bonding over free manicures.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

Just stop. I'm trying. Why can't you ever fucking try? [...] You're invited. It wouldn't be crashing.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

Thanks for missing the point, again.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

Enlighten me.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

It's a discussion we've already had this year. Think hard.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

You'll have to be more specific. You make a lot of criticisms.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

Other squads bond with movie nights or milkshakes but you took them for lunch and manicures even though I wa and now when they want to hang out you're responsible for dropping hundreds of dollars. You know I don't fucking like your special brand of freebies and now I'm on a whole fucking squad of folks who jump at the chance. You became the shiny, exciting leader who gives them adventure and pampering whenever they want, meanwhile since shit like manis makes me uncom I'd rather train, study, or work on college apps—which is that's why I fucking enrolled—I become the lame-ass "party pooper" second. And I love that so much since I'm only trying to be the best I can at my fucking job.

That's the critique I'm talking about today.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

[......] I encourage them to train just as much as you do, Kodi. I just don't berate them when they want to do something else or belittle them when their interests don't align with mine. You don't want to get a manicure, that's fine. You want to live in the library instead, that's fine too. But that's not everyone and you trying to force them to be like you just makes them feel like shit. That's why you're the lame-ass second.

And if I want to spend my money on them, that's my business. But that's not all we do together. Venus and I do Drama Club. Petra and I sculpt. Hadlee and I watch dramas. We were all going to go out and let Petra show us how to shoot but you vetoed that too even though she's right and it is basically training. So what do you want?

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

I don't beli I didn't veto it, I just

[...]

I want to belittle people, make them feel like shit, be a lame-ass second, and veto any ideas even when they're basically training because they don't align with my interests.




Fuck you.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

[...] No you don't. Which is why I don't get why you're doing this.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

Do you actually think that's a conversation I'm willing to have with you after everything you just said? Hint: it's not.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

You've been saying worse to me for the last two months. In case you forgot. And this needed to be said.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

I've given you shit but I wasn't [...] cruel.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

[...] Guess we've got different definitions, then.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

Then besides the girl herself, what's the Kodi Hansen equivalent of your calling me a lame-ass second?

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

Would you prefer that I act like you're incompetent and undeserving? Like you'd crash and burn without me? Because that's how you've been treating me.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

[...] I wasn't serious.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

Like hell you weren't.

[......]

And I started thinking you were right. I started thinking I should step d

But it doesn't matter. I'm just telling you that what you're doing with them isn't working. And I think it hurts this squad. What you want to do with that is up to you.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

Was it your sorry ass who Very authoritative of you.

Kodi/Adam

[adamho]

I'm putting my journal away now.

We can talk later if you want.

Kodi/Adam

[upperhandsen]

I'm fine. Enjoy shooting with o the squad.